Today is usually a hard day for me. 5 years ago it was the last day of our "old" life. I say that because 5 years ago, we were swimming at a pool in Kelowna, laughing with Marcus, and anticipating the arrival of our baby that was to arrive any day. We had no fears, no worries, no pain. It was the last day I had a whole heart.
So much has happened in 5 years, yet the time leading up to our heartbreaking day is still very real. Its not a day that I ever wish to erase, but I cherish the quiet, calm remembrance of what should have been a happy day to follow.
People say that we are a strong family, that we handle our loss very well, but the fact is, we are broken, we are missing a piece of our hearts, our son is dead. Those are strong words, and yes, there are tears flowing down my face.
So yes, today is a hard day for me. But you know what? This is day the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it! We have a great Father that has wiped our tears, held us together and blessed us beyond measures.
Who knows what tomorrow will bring. The memories of July 2 are difficult, painful, but so precious in my heart. God gave us the most beautiful boy, and has given Mike and I the courage to share our story and help others through similar situations. We are not strong, but Christs love is, and that is all we need.
If our friends in Vernon read this, I encourage you to head over to the cemetery tomorrow and visit Brody's gravesite, and reflect on the Love of God, and how great He is!
Be blessed my friends, and say a little prayer for our family tomorrow :)
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