The Stresses and Joys of Life

I don't really have many things to stress about lately, but I couldn't think of a title, and thats all that came to mind. The only challenge that I am facing right now is trying to figure out what to do for Brody's stone. We have sort of put off thinking about this for a while because we had so many other things going on, but the topic has come up again.  We really want to have a stone placed in the ground by next summer. But we want to make it perfect. Just thinking about it makes me sick. Who would of thought that at 27 I would be stressing about picking out a gravestone for my little baby. UGH, that makes me sick.  However, this is something that needs to be done. I think we have some ideas but I'm coming to the realization that I might be holding off on decisions, because I don't want this chapter to end. When we place a stone on his site, it will be the final decision we have to make regarding Brody. I will no longer have to think about doing things for him. He will simply just be a wonderful warm memory that I can just remember.
But on a happier note, I LOVE MY KIDS!!!!! I love that God has blessed us in the fact that I can stay home with my kids all day and not work. I love being with them everyday and just watching them. Last night I curled up beside Marcus in his bed for a while and just watched him sleep. He woke up during that time and smiled, and whispered, "I love you" and closed his eyes and fell back asleep. Marcus has such a soft spot in my heart. He melts my heart everyday with his outpouring love for people and cracks me up with his hilarious jokes and comments. And Jaxson, well, how can you not love a baby that sleeps, eats, and smiles. He is the most content baby in the world, and his whole face lights up when he smiles. If he is crying, I can still manage to get a smile in between cries. He loves to cuddle and just snuggles into me when I'm rocking him. He has this calmness about him that just relaxes me. He is such a blessing to our family.
And on an even happier note. I LOVE MY HUSBAND!!!! Wow, I must be in a good mood today. He got 4 exclamation marks. ha ha. We have almost been married 7 years and I think this year is the greatest so far. I am still learning so much about him, and I am loving him more and more each day.  He has such a gentle heart with his children and he pours out his love for me everyday. I am truly blessed to have such an incredible husband who loves me so much, but more importantly loves his Saviour so much.
Well, Marcus is singing at the top of lungs, and Jaxson is talking in his crib, so i'm going to grab a coffee and maybe bring out the christmas decorations.
Blessings on everyone today